The Riveter
What I didn’t say
when she asked me
why I knew so much
about dying, was that,
for me, it was work.
When Dad called to say
we had a month, I made a list.
I called in my team
to my office in a high rise,
those Rosies of know-how,
those that had lost someone loved,
those that had done the assembly line
of a home death, and said,
What’s this about not keeping
her on TPN? One woman,
who was still soft with sadness
said, It depends on whether
she wants to die of heart failure
or to drown in her own fluids.
I nodded, and wrote that down
like this was a meeting
about a client who wasn’t happy.
What about hospice? I asked.
They said, They’ll help,
but your Dad and you guys
will do most of it.
I put a star by that.
We had a plan of action.
When this happens, we do this.
When that happens, we do that.
But what I forgot
was that it was our plan,
not hers, not the one doing the dying,
this was a plan for those
who still had a next.
See, our job was simple:
keep on living. Her job was harder,
the hardest. Her job,
her work, was to let the machine
of survival break down,
make the factory fail,
to know that this war was winless,
to know that she would singlehandedly
destroy us all.
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