Waxwing Literary Journal: American writers & international voices.

Little Women

Lesley Jenike

Lately I’ve dreamt I’m invited to be an extra on the set of the TV show Girls, only “I’m not a girl anymore,” I tell the producers.

Soon I won’t remember what it was like, but I’ll keep trying to act like one because what else am I going to do?

I’ll say things like tots and Facebook me. I’ll grow my hair long enough I’ll want to cut it.

A woman at the bar tells me she wants to climb a guy who isn’t on her spiritual level. Another man she likes, he’s off with the Sufis somewhere, and that’s better. All that spinning, she says, is so totally enlightening.

She wonders, almost crying, if the best part of herself is gone forever since she’s been unhappy these past few days over the guy who’s gone to the Sufis and because she still lusts after the materialist, while her ego, she says, is caught in the middle, just like a little girl.

about the author
Lesley Jenike

Lesley Jenike

Lesley Jenike is the author of two full-length collections of poetry, Ghost of Fashion (CW Books 2009) and Holy Island (Gold Wake 2014), and has received fellowships and scholarships from The Ohio Arts Council, The Sewanee Writers' Conference, the Vermont Studio Center, and the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts. Her work has appeared in Poetry, The Southern Review, The Gettysburg Review, Smartish Pace, and many other journals. She teaches literature and creative writing at the Columbus College of Art and Design.