Exile Status
All my life I’ve been a stupid little runaway
& tried therefore to like philosophy
as beauty pageants
really wouldn’t work
though smoking yes & beer & sex
a speck I guess.
But dipping tobacco no
& pink trucks sorry no
& no football either
or deer assassination or coons up trees
or weekends gutting pigs
& geese. Which is why
I tried with ideas to escape myself
like ideas are Black Eyed Susans
or mice. But ideas
are not the Mason jars & homemade jams
of the Apocalypse
& ideas are not
the shredded roosters & sourdough starters
of the Apocalypse, & knowing that means
I’m just an old farmer
milking my cow in the dusk. Or an itinerant granny
holed up a wily ridge.
Or a sleepy child
wheeling her little wagon
down a sleepy road.
& dusk really is
the main thrill of it as in the point of it
& also the fear of it
& thus nothing like an idea
though it’s duende yes of course
& what we call the liminal
since there are bats here too
not to mention
my beloved foxes curled up in a feral posse
like a party of furs
& the old & famous
hard rain out there
just drenching us.
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