Self-Portrait as Winged Victory of Samothrace
Lately, I have been searching
for bodies that swell pregnant
with brine. In the Louvre,
I touch marble
blistering on doorways: one unending gaze
flung against history’s frame. Small
disasters. How long before I find the remains
of cities I left
to grief? Only netting
in my hands, too quickly stitched to
stillness. I have seen the dream where I stand
atop a ship’s hull —
what it is to play
the captain of a flooded land, harpooning
the faces of grandparents I have
never met. Around me,
statues shaped
by foreign hands. For eight years,
I busied myself in the endless
walkways of the West, each exhibit crashing
into the next, learned to forget the aching
of these gilded
wings.
In a different country, I do not drown
myself in the sea’s embrace. My name
hurled to the wind. An anchor caught
on this broken hull, obliterated by light. See how the tides
erode each unspectacular
victory, how I always
return to fistfuls of foam.
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