They Say Loss Can Touch Another Loss
It’s the bird of you in the south of me. Your wing making that long cut
into my cheek. All day we labored around her death, put our hands in it
rustled it around. The bed was not yet soil. The bruises not yet cold
along her arm where it had fallen. When it was done, my mother clipped a patch
of her white hair into an envelope. It softened her. The light was softened
in the telescope of death, arriving through the fingers of the trees. The air
was made into a language, scrawled onto the house. The house was imperfected
yellowed photographs, sleep yellowing the walls. The bird of you arriving then
reminding me to let a body go into the ground of autumn. The trees talking
and the temperature stretched its long arms, the animals were tentative. It’s the bird
of you, the sound of earth arriving into earth, soundless when her breath became
not breath, when her closed eyes closed again. Next day, my mother cupped her
dentures in the circle of her palm and we approached the question. We walked
and walked and sat, reviewed the list: vertebrae, loyalty, century; flour, pearl, regret
and plastic; hair dye, gravel, elegance. And you came to walk me with your wings
quiet so I almost didn’t feel you there, beard twilight blue, padding your trunk feet
clapping your crows nails across the grassy streets. Every time a chipped-together
time. Sometimes we have to lay a matriarch to rest. Death is weather bled by clocks
mother is a house of future burdens. Everything goes bright, then uninhabited. South
of me, where forests shed their light, and bird of you, freewheels beyond the light.
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