A Novel Written against Oblivion
begins with music — a man shoveling snow
has no way of knowing this time the steadfast snow
slowly refilling the path he worked to clear won’t stop
until his heart stops first, the daughter writing the same story
inside their lamplit house, believing what she’s making
to be make-believe, Crayoned snowbanks beneath two pines,
classical radio filling the room, the shovel’s hard measure gone
cold. But this novel written against oblivion is not a story
about the man but a story about love: how the daughter
lets her dog outside, sees the father’s crumpled frame
against white, pleads into the face she holds with her hands
before continuing to live a life in which she brings the dog
everywhere she goes after, until the dog no longer can be
brought to a place. Then this novel written against oblivion,
this story about love, explores the ghosts imprinted onto
the grownup daughter’s mind: riding her bike through the clarity
of neighborhood air, all day wanting to dance to evening jazz,
the antique map of Texas drawing her far into sleep.
Without the dog, the daughter alone finds her way to yet
another place with trees and cicadas, another with hills and rivers
and clouds, another with birdsong each morning, her hands
darkened with garden dirt, because this novel written against
oblivion is really a story about love, and the daughter has maps
and music inside her. Far in the future, when the daughter dies,
for the daughter dies in this novel, too, it’s still not a story
about death. It’s written in the present tense, and the protagonist
is the daughter. When the novel ends, because all stories end,
the reader understands more about oblivion, even more about love.
There is no escaping the weather we can’t live separate from.
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