As Safe As Night
After he tells my friends how awful I was
how I laid there unwelcoming where are we fucking
going he’d said as if he deserved all doors flung open
another gap-toothed prayer for beer instead
of food instead of forgiveness as I strained
to hold myself inside the tree limbs stitched
with sky as I strained to believe that I was ever
young that girl sick with the wind’s exorcism
the moon slutting in a valley’s gullet
a man’s mouth on each word I couldn’t save
for myself the dawns that arrived like shame
to settle in the trees I’ve said nothing about
that night the dark the trees the sharp glancing pain
that came & came & came how I couldn’t stand
on my own for hours or was it years
my body mulched mistaken for an invitation
an entryway I shouldn’t have had to enter
this story alone this sad this sorry starved
lash-less I’ve never made a wish on anything
I’ve lost I wish instead for a night
that could be safe from all this dark
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