Across

1. Your friends and family used this word to describe me over and over.

3. You had a T-shirt the color of sea glass. On the front, it said _____. I believed in it.

6. Song your family always sang as they set the table.

8. Your father told me the pipes at the cottage were bad. “If it’s yellow, let it mellow. If it’s brown, flush it...”

10. I got drunk on this and your friends said, “Diane is actually fun.”

12. Everyone in your family had the whitest, straightest...

13. Where we slept on the beach, the smell of the seaweed like the smell of semen.

16. How long you said we’d be together, that morning after your old boy scout tent collapsed and we woke with the wet vinyl stuck to our bodies like seal skin.

18. What grew blurry as I cried, as you held me from behind and said we’d be together forever.

19. I struggled with social...

Down

2. Number of years it has been since we said goodbye.

4. Your friend’s dad was a senator, and I brought this canned food to his potluck. Fiesta...

5. The number of summers we spent in Manomet visiting your family.

7. The number of steps from the cliff outside your family’s cottage to the beach.

8. Water pills I downed before showing up at the bonfire in my red, plaid bikini.

9. Where I see you so happy now with a wife and children. You were always kind until you weren’t. Now I can see you are kind again.

11. Whether it was with your friends or your family, I did not...

14. When I’ll next be in that wind-grayed cottage with the yellow shutters, sandy floors, and bad plumbing.

15. How you made me feel when you pulled me away from my early-morning crosswords.

17. What we spotted that time, ecstatic, out on the rocks, way out past the jetties.